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Full Planet
part 3
by Feech
Damien, my plate of cookies and I continue
down the hall.
"Your things are in this room, here," says
the valet, stopping outside yet another heavy
oaken door and unlatching it.
This room has no special strong scent of its
own, although I catch a slight whiff of my own
property, the small amount of luggage I brought
with me from Luna. I step inside, beginning to
feel comfortable, when I am struck with the sight
of bars on the window.
No way. No way am I staying in this room
tonight. Absolutely not no way.
Damien stops my sudden, mad pacing with a
grip to my arm that startles me with its strength.
"Stop!" I say, turning on him. "That hurts!
What are you doing?"
He lets go immediately and drops his hand.
Something that flickers across his face quiets me
as he says, "I'm sorry, Nathaniel. I forgot to be
careful. But you need to calm down. What's
wrong?"
"I'm not staying in this room tonight. No
way."
"Okay..." Damien is going to give me my way,
but I get the sudden feeling that he knows my
every thought, that if he decided to exercise
control over me he could. I don't know whether
that is a comforting or disquieting idea. His
eyes, unblinking now as he regards me, are as
powerful as Oskar's. He continues. "What's wrong
with it?"
"That mad father of mine can have his room
with bars. I'm not staying in a cage. No way.
If I have to stay in this room I'll tear-- tear
through..." I begin to realize what I'm saying
and stop, uncertain.
Damien keeps his steady, unnatural gaze on me
for a moment more, then looks at his watch. He
smiles slightly. "A little touchy, for full moon
being next Thursday. A week away yet. Well,
you're in a new place and you're overtired.
"Come on, Nathaniel. If it's the bars that
bother you, we'll just set you up on Mrs. Hudson's
floor. Plenty of extra rooms down there. Come
on, let's go. Bring your stuff."
Silently, I comply.
I sit in my new, non-barred room with my
personal computer on my lap. I stare at the
screen in an exhausted stupor. Damien has left, I
have consumed the cookies, and I intend to write a
note to Mother.
I hesitate. My hands are ready, but I can't
make myself tell the story of my meeting with my
father. There seems to be very little in the way
of idle chit-chat that I might be able to share,
yet if I send a message to Luna, trivia is all
that Mother will expect. I can't bring myself to
mention things that she has obviously not
forgotten and has never intended to share with me.
Well, if I can't talk to her, I can at least
make some connection with home before I go utterly
batty. I type the address for Luna University's
Observatory computer.
Once the connection is made, I pause, trying
to decide what to ask. Finally I type:
"Hello LUOComputer. This is N. D'Yangelo."
The computer responds: "Hello Nathaniel."
"How are ya?"
"I am fine Nathaniel thank you and how are
you?"
"Not so hot. My father says I'm a werewolf."
"Interesting," replies the Observatory
computer, which means of course that it doesn't
have a clue what I just said.
"Isn't it though. Say, LUOC, that last time
I was locked in there, last full planet, what did
I do all night?"
My small computer screen is unaffected for a
moment, as the LUOC thinks, then a reply comes
through: "You Nathaniel D'Yangelo were not in the
Observatory during the last full planet."
Great. Now the Luna University's computer
system has gone bonkers, too. "Computer," I
type, "That's impossible. Re-check clock."
Pause. "Done. Results unaltered."
Uh-huh. Wonderful. "I entered the
Observatory, right?"
"Correct."
"So if I wasn't there that night, and I
didn't leave until you unlocked the doors in the
morning, when and where did I go?"
"Unknown."
"LUOC, if I wasn't there, who was there?"
"Unknown."
"But there was someone?"
"Yes."
Screwy machine. "Identity unknown?"
I can tell by the delay that the computer
re-checks, then replies, "The sole occupant of the
Observatory on the date in question was an unknown
canid."
I shut off the computer. No other choice but
to go to sleep now. I'm the only sane person,
machines included, left in the world.
Friday. Pizza night.
The entire family, excluding Maury this time,
takes one of the motor boats out to meet the
weekly Ferry from Norway to Iceland. We're going
to Reykjavik, the nearest large city, for a meal
out and a little break for Mrs. Hudson.
The Ferry is a massive, white, dicky antique
cruise ship owned and operated by a small company
whose main reason for being is transporting
customers from one northern continent to another.
It would be easy enough to hire a private boat to
make these trips, but besides being less expensive
the Ferry is full of people and is therefore, in
the opinion of Oskar, more fun.
Hm.
The meal is all right, but I keep thinking
about what Damien said when he looked at his watch
last night-- that the full moon is now less than a
week away. I just don't know whether I can trust
Oskar under these circumstances. Will he force me
to stay in one of the window-barred rooms? Why
should I care if he does? How different is that
from locking myself in the University Observatory
every month? It's all so confusing and
distracting that I eat barely half the amount of
pizza my confident father does.
Laraine seems to enjoy herself, but then as
far as I've seen she's always sweet-tempered and
uncomplaining. She smiles at me often during the
meal and I return the grins, although probably a
bit goofily considering my weird state.
Damien, of course, shows very little concern
at anything, although I'm certain he is aware that
I'm not quite _handling_ this. He has no way of
knowing about the LUOC screw-up, but after my
little performance in the guest room last night he
must think I'm as nuts as I know he is. Or
something like that.
Damien doesn't touch his pizza until Oskar
tries his own, then nods to Damien. It seems to
be a ritual between them. I wonder idly why Oskar
doesn't have everyone else wait until he has
started. Makes about as much sense as everything
else so far, I guess.
The Ferry departs at nine PM, and time goes
surprisingly fast until then. We spend most of
our time in the pizza parlor, chatting with each
other and the friendly waitstaff. Remarkably, I
remain _un_startled for almost the entire evening.
Only one thing shakes me up a little, and that's
the appearance of a customer with a distinctly
feline head and long, furry tail. I glance
quickly at Damien. If he pays no attention, I
won't say a word...
Damien returns my look and smiles. Then he
shrugs. Right. I get it. It's perfectly normal
for cat-people to patronize the pizza parlors in
Iceland. I take a deep breath and regain my
composure. But, until that cat leaves, I have my
eye on him, and, I notice, Damien has his eye on
me.
I spend a lot of the next week avoiding my
father. I know it's upsetting him, but even
though I no longer feel the urgency I first had to
return to Luna, I find it hard to approach the
man. Those "Love, Dad"s on the end of his
computer messages may have gotten me here to
Earth, and if he were a normal man we might be
having the time of our lives right now. But how
can I allow someone who is obviously insane to be
a father figure to me, whether he is actually my
father or not?
Cassandra Clavius' portrait is still nagging
at my mind. In my efforts to politely avoid
Oskar, I decide to ask Damien for more information
about the people who lived here. I tried asking
Laraine, but she withdrew, smiling apologetically
but still refusing to make eye contact with me for
the rest of the day.
So I mostly follow Damien around the castle,
asking questions.
"All I know is that Cassandra Morgan Clavius
died about eight years ago," he tells me,
"Because Manfred had been at the institution that
long before he died. When your father got the
legal information, where we used to live in
America, the only detail given was the date of
Manfred's death and where it occurred. Oskar
contacted the institution, found out Laraine was
there, and brought her home. Evidently Manfred
had dismissed all the help when Cassandra died.
At any rate, no one came forward with any claims
or further information."
"What's the name of the institution?"
"Hmm... I forget. But it must be somewhere
in your father's papers. I'm sure there's a phone
number. Want me to ask Oskar later?"
"Please."
"Say, Nathaniel... Why are you so interested
in this?"
"I don't know. It's just some feeling I've
got. Something about it bothers me."
Damien unwraps a stick of gum (I can tell by
the scent that it's artificial strawberry), puts
it in his mouth, and starts chewing (and
blinking). "Cassandra's picture looks a lot like
Laraine, doesn't it."
"Yes... Yes, it does. But it's hardly
disturbing for a child to look like her mother."
"Oh, I don't know," Damien says. "I find such
close resemblance to be a little spooky, myself.
Perhaps it has to do with the fact that you can't
go back. You know what I mean?"
"I think so."
"Anyway, I'll get that phone number for you
if I can."
"Thanks, Damien."
"No problem." He flashes me a grin. At
least he makes no pretenses at being a wolf or a
unicorn or any whatever-else-have-yous. I like
him.
I get the phone number the next day,
Wednesday, and use Oskar's hall phone. At least
this piece of technology is on a par with Lunar
equipment. I could call Mother from here, really
talk to her via radio, but still I stop myself.
Something about the memory of her wedding ring,
and the one Dad always wears, keeps me from
contacting her. I almost feel as though I don't
want to intrude.
A receptionist with a Norwegian accent takes
my call. Once we've been through the rigamarole
of whose case I am inquiring into, and who I am,
and the fact that Manfred Clavius is no longer
living, she checks with a superior and gets back
to me.
"In this case I have clearance to give you
the patient's information," she tells me, "Since
the man in question is dead and you are a
relative. In just a moment I will have confirmed
your location and identification, then we can try
to answer any questions you may have."
I wait for the requisite moment. The tracer
confirms my current residence at Uranenborg on
Hven.
"Now, how may I help you?"
"Why was Manfred Clavius committed?"
Pause while records are checked. "Manfred
Clavius committed himself, with the reason given
that he could no longer care for himself and his
fourteen-year-old daughter in a reliable fashion."
"And when did he commit himself, please?
What date?"
"He entered the institution on... Let me
see... November fifteenth, of the year 2363. He
came with his daughter, who had her own mental
stresses as well, due to the death of the wife and
mother on the previous night. November
fourteenth."
"I see. And it was eight years later that
Manfred passed on."
"That's right."
"So what did he die of?"
There is a long pause, one that I recognize
as thoughtful and pitying. Eventually the
receptionist speaks again. "You are a relative...
I don't want you to take this news too hard. Mr.
Clavius had had a hard time. This information
might upset you, however..."
"I'd rather know than not, please," I say,
wondering what she could possibly know that would
upset me all that much.
"Well, the records state that Manfred managed
to acquire poisonous substances without the
knowledge of our staff. He was found dead in his
room after the... Deliberate ingestion of silver
filings. I'm sorry."
Why am I standing, alone and disoriented, in
the middle of Reykjavik?
That's easy.
After that phone call, I still had enough
presence of mind to ask my computer for a little
information about the date of November fourteenth,
2363.
You guessed it-- full moon.
The very idea of spending _this_ month's
night of the full moon at Uranenborg on Hven
suddenly became a suffocating panic, and without
even informing Damien I called Norway and hired a
boat.
All I can think is that there must have been
some _reason_ why Manfred killed himself--
although until yesterday I had no idea _silver_
was poisonous-- and the only one that seems to
make sense by _this_ planet's standards is too
harrowing to think about.
Isn't it possible that my father, a
self-avowed werewolf, might engage in the same
hideous actions as his ancestors?
I'm not going to be there to find out. I'll
stay in Reykjavik until Friday, hop the Ferry back
to Uranenborg on Hven _after_ the full moon, and
book passage on a shuttle back to Luna. I'm a
D'Yangelo. I shouldn't have any problem bypassing
Lunar governmental difficulties.
But what do I do now?
I need a place to stay.
Only problem being, I had enough currency to
pay the boat-pilot... and that's all.
I _admit_ that this is a stupid situation to
have gotten myself into, especially considering I
may be panicking over a family mental disorder
that doesn't exist. But if it doesn't exist, then
why are my dreams so different on those nights?
Where have my memories gone? And how did my
father know about my condition?
It occurs to me that, tomorrow night being
the full moon, while I may be safer here than in
that houseful of lunatics (pardoning myself for my
own faux pas), I still don't know just how
unpredictable _my_ actions are going to be.
I miss my home Observatory so much that I
want to scream, but I (barely) keep calm. I won't
go to the pizza parlor-- that's Dad's territory
and he might come rout me out.
I'm hungry.
One cold night, one long day wandering in the
streets or-- or within my own mind, it's hard to
tell--
straying from vendor to vendor but never
approaching, not trusting after that Snake man
selling hot dogs by the Library...
No money, no one familiar, no computer,
sun falling Thursday night full moon
Damien.
Mashed potatoes.
"C'mere, Nathaniel."
Mashed potatoes. Stinging smell-- _good_.
Damien known. Mashed potatoes? Food...
"There y'are. That's fine. What the Hell
did you think you were going to do in Reykjavik by
yourself tonight anyway? Your Dad would never
forgive me if you got lost when he was locked
up...
"There you go. That was a stupid thing to
do, Nathaniel. Remind me to watch you better next
time."
Pressure around throat? Pressure... not too
much. Food. _Warm_. Tug, tug-- follow Damien.
All right. Follow Damien.
Dark smell. Fabric smell. Taxi cab.
Damien.
Sleep.