I've been pretty apathetic for the past year. But no, I haven't. It's odd, can't really put my finger on it. I suppose it's just hard to get excited about self-beneficial things that aren't directly pleasurable. That and a lack of any ability to keep to a schedule. I don't have a friend to exercise with, or money to join a group were there any groups available. Plus I'm addicted to the computer. Overall, I'm in a real pickle that days of not enough motion and too much shortening laced food isn't helping.
It's not that exercise feels bad. I feel terrible! So unmoving and full of pent up energy, I'd /love/ to go jogging through some wooded hills! Of course 20 minutes out and I wouldn't love it so much, but even that would be enough for me right now! There aren't any woods in a hundred miles though. Only nasty busy paved city streets. Plus with my ankle messed up by the doctors mis-reading an X-ray, I was told not to run on it too much.
Running isn't the only thing though. I could dance! Calisthenics! Aerobics! Aikido can be practiced in the living room, truly. I just don't do it, or when I do do it, it is irregular and inconsistent. (Hehee, doo doo itt itt...) So what's the solution? Find a friend, I know. But the neighbors aren't friendly, one side an insular Mexican family, the other not nice at all. Across the street is just scary and the little old lady on the corner isn't going to cut it. There's the one house whose inhabitants work on their motor scooters now and again. Everyone else. And I mean _everyone_ else gets in their cars and drives away, never really venturing outside.
There too, it's my fault as well. The nearest park is half a mile away. Half a mile! Sure it sucks, just a bunch of mowed down crab grass and a few children's playground swings, but it is a place I could go and play, and a place that pedestrians do frequent! I should go there regularly. Why I haven't is a mystery to me. I could try to do so in the future, but I don't know what went wrong in the past, and worry that just more of the same thing won't give me the results I need. Correction, I will try to do so in the future. Even if it doesn't work, it's better than nothing, right?
My bike is broke too... sigh I don't know what to do. Right now I'm just going to go bounce a racquet ball off the wall. :)
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