3 Things I'm Trying to Fix

A failure complex where I want to make myself fail, and will pull every trick in the book to make that happen, and all for no good reason that I can figure out.
The more I care about myself, and acknowledge my self worth, the more I have to lose when I "inevitably" die, and the heavier my soul sags in despair and mourning.
I have time management skills that would make the Cheshire Cat cry.