by Husky Raznaspoenik |
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chapter 3: message to home
24 January 2001 - 13:00
"Hi, Ms. Raznaspoeknik speaking."
I heard the familiar voice of my mother on the phone, and I
was almost thinking of hanging up, because I knew I would never
hear that voice in the same way again. I decided however that
the thing I really didn't want was that she was going to be totally
unprepared to see me on national TV, so I got over my fears and
started talking:
"Hi Mom, Husky here."
"Hi Son! What's wrong with you, you seem to have a bad cold,
your voice is so low."
I sighed and breathed in deeply before talking to my mother
again: "Mom, there's something I'll have to tell you. Before you
get a heart attack, no, I'm not getting married, I'm not gonna
be a father and I'm not having a terrible disease. It's something
else."
I heard my mother with a very concerned voice on the other end
of the line: "Husky, please tell me. What's wrong?"
I breathed in deeply once again: "Did you see the news, about
those transformations taking place all over the world?"
My mother responded with an uncertain tone in her voice: "Yess...
I heard about that wolf-morph... Oh, Husky! Have you been attacked
by that horrible monster?"
This was going to be very, very difficult for her to understand
I assured myself: "No Mom. I've not been attacked by that creature,
that wouldn't be possible, because..."
"Yes... Dear?"
"I am the wolf."
I heard a loud yell from the other end of the phone, then somebody
taking over the phone from my mother, I heard a voice that appeared
to be my father: "Husky! Why did you scare your mother?! You know
she doesn't like those practical jokes you make to her. Remember
when you almost gave her a heart attack when you hid that fake
ripped-off hand in her drawer. Young man, I think --"
I interrupted my father: "Dad, this is not a joke. I have really
turned into a wolf."
I heard a short pause, then my father again: "But... that can't
be true! I mean, why would you change into a wolf." A short pause
again, and then I think it finally got through to my father: "Oh
god. My oldest son has turned into a werewolf! What are we going
to do?"
A shiver went through my spine when I heard my mother crying
and my father shouting. Then I heard another familiar voice on
the line.
It was my little brother.
"Hi... This is Eric. Who's there?" I think he probably picked
up another phone in the house, because I still could clearly hear
my parents shouting.
God, as if my mother and father weren't enough to handle already.
How could I explain my little brother that I turned into a wolf?
Well, I might as well get over it now.
"Hi Eric, this is Husky."
"Hi Bro! Mom and Dad are having a quarrel or something. They
are shouting downstairs."
I sighed again, for only the hundred time today: "Well, I guess
I know why they're shouting. It's about me."
"Yeah? Why? Did you crash dad's car into a tree or something?"
I chuckled slightly at that thought: "No Eric. You see... I
have changed into an anthropomorphic wolf."
I heard my brother yell enthusiastic into the phone: "Did you
turn into a wolf? Cool! Like on the news?" This was something
I hadn't even considered. My brother was too young to fully understand
the impact of changing into a wolf, but it was nice to hear someone
actually being enthusiastic about my transformation.
"Yeah Eric, like on the news. I suppose that could be considered
cool."
"And do you have a tail, and paws and fur and stuff? Wow! I
can't wait to tell my friends about this! Can you howl on the
phone for me now, or can you --"
I interrupted him: "Eric, hold a moment please. Don't tell your friends! I mean, I suspect you don't fully understand
the impact of this all now. But you must promise me for now that
you won't tell anyone, ok?"
I heard Eric sighing on the other end of the line: "Aw..."
"No, Eric!" I shouted.
"Well, alright Husky. Oh! I believe Mom's on the phone again,
see you soon furry wolf brother, bye bye!"
I cracked a smile, it was really nice to hear someone comment
about my current state without using words like 'monster', 'demon'
or 'freak'. But for now I had to concern myself about others,
like a hysterical mom on the phone...
"Husky, this is mom again. Your father and I are still very
confused, but we want to make one thing clear: you're still our
son, and we love you. We want to see you, could you come over
to us?"
I was thinking, and decided that it was still not the right
time to go out in public: "No Mom, I don't want to go on the street.
Why don't you come over to my house tomorrow, and bring Eric with
you?" I really wanted to see my little brother again, if it was
only to make me smile again.
"Well, I guess so. Tomorrow will be..."
Suddenly I heard Liz yelling from downstairs: "Husky! Come on
down, the news is on in a minute!"
I quickly ended my phone call: "Mom, you have to watch the news
on Channel 2 now, there is an interview with me. I'll call you
back as soon as I can." I heard my mom resist, but the interview
was going to start any moment. I shouted a quick "Bye," and hung
up the phone. I ran downstairs.
The news had already started and Liz had turned on the VCR.
I heard the familiar voice of the newsreader on TV: "Good Afternoon,
this is Philip Freriks and you're watching the NOS news of 24
January 2001." I sat down on my 'tail-friendly' chair and started
watching.
"In the whole world transformations have taken place. People
have changed into animals, either normal animals or anthropomorphic
animals. Estimates are now about 100. The majority of these transformations
have taken place in the United States, but there are reports of
transformations in our country.
"Our special reporter Susan Parker had an interview with a man
who has changed into an anthropomorphic grey wolf."
The interview was broadcast. It was the same as I remembered,
they left out some less important questions, but fortunately they
did keep it fairly unchopped, and it was made clear that I was
still a living, breathing being who didn't have any bad intentions.
It was weird to hear myself talking, and I noticed for the first
time that I did actually have a lower pitch in my voice.
The last question was asked, and I could see myself being very
uncomfortable with the question, I was wondering if anyone else
would see it too.
The newsreader was now on the screen again: "The news hasn't
gone by unnoticed by the government. Several politicians had their
shares on the current events. Prime Minister Kok talked to our
political reporter Job Frieso in The Hague."
Prime Minister Kok appeared on the screen. The reporter was
asking him questions: "Mr. Kok. What do you think of the recent
news about the transformations?"
Minister Kok looked as if he was really shocked by the news.
I couldn't remember ever seeing him looking shocked about anything: "I haven't had a change to read all the reports about these transformations
yet. But it looks like we'll have to debate this extensively."
"Have you already talked with any of the victims?"
Minister Kok raised an eyebrow: "No, not yet. But I intend to
talk to anyone who wishes to speak with me."
Then the reporter asked a question that was very important to
me, but for some reason I hadn't thought of it before: "Mr. Kok,
will all the rights of the constitution still apply to these 'creatures',
considering they aren't really human anymore?" I was twitching
my thumbs, this was really very important for me.
"It's too soon to say anything about these... uhm... events.
As soon as anything is decided you'll hear it."
Damn, exactly an answer that could be expected from him.
The newsreader appeared once more on the screen: "For now, this
is the news about the transformations. There will be an extra
journal at 7 o'clock on Channel 1. Now over to other news of tod
--" Liz turned off the TV again. She had been awfully quiet during
the news, and she had a look on her face I never had seen before.
"Liz, what's wrong?" I asked her, ears pulled back.
Nothing could have prepared me for the answer she gave me: "Husky...
I'm afraid I can't stay any longer with you... God, I feel so
fucked up about this, but it's the only thing I can do to stay
sane. All these things that happened the past few days, I just...
can't cope Husky. I can't. Please don't feel like I hate you or
so, but I just... I mean, I know how you feel, and I'm sorry for
it."
Fuck it all, was the only thing I could think of. And she couldn't
possibly know what I was feeling inside. The only thing that kept
me sane for the past few days was Liz's presence. If it weren't
for her I would have probably killed myself already. I didn't
have the power to do anything else than to say to her: "Go Liz.
Go. Just... go."
She took her bag and started walking to the door, looking at
me once again: "Sorry, Husky. Honestly. Sorry." She opened the
door, letting a cool wind breeze trough the house. And then there
was silence. Absolute silence. And before I knew it I was venting
out my rage on everything I could find in the house, glasses,
furniture, devices, anything my paws could grab. It just didn't
matter anymore.
After my rage had finally declined I sank down in a corner of
the room. I couldn't think of anything. I just sat down there
for god knows how long. Just staring at my paws. Just... doing
nothing.
I probably would have stayed down there for another week if
it weren't for the doorbell to ring. From the voices I heard I
could make up they were my parents. I couldn't think of a worse
time for them to visit me. But I had to open the door. I just
had to.
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